Behind Dark Eyes: My Poems

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09 กุมภาพันธ์

Who it is we are..?

There are so many dimensions
To the world
We think we know
There are so many different
Lifetimes
In the same parallel
We travel with fast speed
Even though it feels
Like we’re standing still
All in the existence
Of what
We think is an illusion
And what we think is real
So who are we really..?
In this world that
We travel along
Are we the sun
Or the stars
Or are we a sacred song
No-bodies sung
I look into the mirror
I see a reflection
Staring back at me
Though familiar
I don’t really know
Who it is that I see
Searching for the truth
Trying to dissolve
All the lies
All in the hope
Of discovering
Who it is we really are..?

11:21 | เพิ่มข้อคิดเห็น | ลิงก์ถาวร | จัดทำบล็อก | My Poems

04 มกราคม

One Last Time

I wish I could give you a piece of my life
So that you could be seen for one last time
I wish that I could have one more moment with you
So that I could hold your hand and feel it in mine
I wish I could take my breath
And breathe it into your lungs
Just so I could feel your heart beat
Just so that I could hear you one more time..
I wish I could say the words I kept inside
Thinking that tomorrow would always be sure to come
Now it’s too late cos your no longer here
And it’s only my tears that fall
As I think of your beautiful smile
The one I saw for the last time..

16:18 | เพิ่มข้อคิดเห็น | ลิงก์ถาวร | จัดทำบล็อก | My Poems

04 ธันวาคม

TRUTH

Your eyes speak louder
Than all the words
That fall from your mouth
Your heart beating
In the heat
Of every thought
That flashes
From your past
Torn, like a puzzle
You try to fit together
In your mind
And in your heart
All the missing pieces
Of what you know
And what you know nothing about
Though standing in your presence
Looking into your eyes
Perfect in your being
Are all the shadows
and curves
Of your body
Your face
And your miraculous smile
Precious in moments
Like a song
You play in my mind
Until your taken
By the spaces
That project from
Your insides out
Left in your shadow
The cold breeze
Sweeps the leaves

Of all our stories
And all our lies
And its then I crave
To touch you
In a place
Where everything fades
And it's only the TRUTH that speaks out.

29 ตุลาคม

Watching Me

Sometimes I hear a whisper
I turn, thinking that your there
But all there is, is emptiness
And shadows everywhere…
Sometimes I get a shiver
I feel your presence in the room
But I know it’s just my mind
Cos you’re not coming home anytime soon
Sometimes I hear the silence
Piercing like the echo’s in my mind
I sense you’re there listening
Trying to give me the answers
I can’t seem to find
I feel and hear you moving
living breathing within the air I breathe
your like a force I can’t touch or see
But then I hear a whisper
I turn,
And somehow I know your there
Watching me…

17:33 | เพิ่มข้อคิดเห็น | ลิงก์ถาวร | จัดทำบล็อก | My Poems

20 ตุลาคม

My Baby Jay...

I’m sitting here writing…
Thinking about
Your beautiful smile
Thinking about the days
When we were kids
When our innocence
Shone from behind our eyes
I remember laughing with you
Laughing so much we cried
I remember
The nights when
We couldn’t go to sleep
Because we had too
Much to talk about
It seems so long ago now
So far back in the past
And now
Its just a story
A memory
I carry in my heart
You were always my baby
The one I cared
So much about
You were the source
Behind my joy
And the glimmer of light
In my smile
I can’t believe
That your no-longer here
That your smile
Lives only in my mind
I can’t believe
I’ll never feel you again
That I wont
Feel the warmth of your
Generous hugs
I’m sorry I was not always there
I’m sorry I couldn’t
Always make you smile
I’m sorry for all the times
I couldn't catch your tears
When you cried
I miss you so much
It hurts me deep inside
Though even though your gone
Your spirit will forever live on
Your heart and courage
Fuels me
It reminds me of what lifes about
Your truth shone light on me
and I live now
In the memory of your LOVE..

You are and always will be
my beautiful baby Ugur
I promise I'll never forget
Your truth...
I Love you..
Rest In Peace

04.10.2006

09 ตุลาคม

Would you..?

If I gave you today
and not spoke of tomorrow
would you come and share it

with me...?
If I gave you my heart

and hid all my sorrow

would you whisper sweet

words to me...?
If I gave you my honor

and hid all my doubts

would you cradle me in

your shadow..?

And if I said that

I loved you

Would you give me

your heart,

Even though I know

we dont belong to

tomorrow..?

© 2006 Sevgi Boga. All Rights Reserved

12:59 | เพิ่มข้อคิดเห็น | ลิงก์ถาวร | จัดทำบล็อก | My Poems

21 กันยายน

The Sound of Two Hearts

Floating within the dimensions
Of a world so vague...
So unknown...
Two souls entwined
In the stillness of one room
Wrapped in each other’s breath
The only sound heard are their hearts
Beating...
            Beating...
Beating...
              So fast…
Two bodies lay still
too afraid to touch,
for what they both feel,
May hurt them too much
No words…
             No sounds…
Just the beat of their hearts
Beating...
           Beating…
Beating...
              So fast…
Darkness cradles them
Protects them from each others eyes
For with the light they may see
Through each others disguise
Two bodies lay still
Two souls entwined
Wrapped in each others breath
They speak only
with the sound of their hearts.

© 2006 Sevgi Boga. All Rights Reserved

12:29 | เพิ่มข้อคิดเห็น | ลิงก์ถาวร | จัดทำบล็อก | My Poems

06 กันยายน

For Who You Are

I walked the miles of a broken heart
Sang the words to a million sad songs
Laid my head down to sleep at night
You danced in my mind
With the first break of day light
Envisioned your smile
As I gave up my own
Just so that I could feel you
When you were gone
I wrote and wrote
To unburden my soul
Breathing you in the lines of
every longing thought
Endlessly I struggled
To feel complete
To let you go
But without you I was lost
Incomplete
I felt so low
Then the day came
When you walked back into my life
And I saw the magic
I dreamed of in your eyes
It was still there
It wasn’t lost
Just hidden away
For it was saved for me to see
In your eyes
that amazing day
Completed in an instant
I felt my world shift
Right before my eyes
And I could see you
For who you were
And not the created disguise
So many life times
So many parallels
Came together in that moment
When you held my hand in yours
All this time
You were in a place I couldn’t see
Because I was looking in a space
I wanted you to be
So today I stand before you
With not my words
But with all my heart
Hoping that you know
I will carry you always
Always in my heart..

© 2006 Sevgi Boga. All Rights Reserved

16:49 | เพิ่มข้อคิดเห็น | ลิงก์ถาวร | จัดทำบล็อก | My Poems

03 สิงหาคม

I Feel a Change

I feel a change is coming
I feel the breeze lifting me off my feet
It feels like something is empty
Like something inside me is incomplete

I feel a change is coming
I can smell it in the wind
I feel its piercing silence
I feel anxious for what the
New season will bring

I feel a commotion building
Rising more and more every day
Like a story coming to an end
Like a new road leading a different way

I feel a change is drawing
Like the waves pulling on the shore
Building up to something greater
I wonder what the new tide has in store

I feel myself moving
Through the hustle and bustle of the day
I feel my world is shifting
As I witness my life
Turning a different way

I am the change I want to see
In the world that I am living now
And as I walk this path
I wear a smile
Cos I feel so different somehow

29 มิถุนายน

In My Sleep

So much peace you bring me
Every time you come to me,
In my sleep
Your presence makes me shiver
Your touch makes me feel so weak
Like an autumn leaf falling
You break me down
With the deepness in your gaze
Breathless in your breath
In a trance;
You leave me feeling so dazed
I feel my heart pounding
As though there’s a drum
In every beat
Your kiss like a remedy
Soothing me from
My head down to my feet
Though I know this feeling wont last
Cos soon I know you will leave
And I’ll be lost again
Until the next time
You come to me in my dream

© 2006 Sevgi Boga. All Rights Reserved

26 มิถุนายน

Shimmering Light

A pillar of strength
He stands
Charming the world
With his generous smile
Like a star shining brightly
In the
Dark
    Velvet
         Blue night
I see the magic of his soul
Shimmering out through his
Beautiful
    Deep
          Dark
Mystifying eyes
Infectious
Is his laugh
He always paints a smile
Across my face
His presence is like a
Puzzle piece of my heart
So unique;
No other person can replace
He brings me joy
He spreads so much
Laughter and light
Kindness beats in his pulse
In his
Caring
Soulful heart
You see;
I’ve watched him through the years
I’ve seen him stumble and fall
I’ve seen him take his first steps
I’ve watched him grow so tall
So many years shared together
So many memories
Instilled with his smile
Sometimes I get a shiver
Thinking bout how quickly
Time’s gone by
And now he stands before me
Blessing my world
With such beautiful light
Like a pillar of strength
And kindness
He makes me proud
So proud
With the colours
He carries in his heart

(For my beautiful brother Hakan Boga love ya lots)

© 2006 Sevgi Boga. All Rights Reserved

14 มิถุนายน

Trust...?

Words spoken

With misconception

Searching for truth

Amongst all the lies and deception

One word
Becomes two

And two

Becomes four

Each word adding to the story

While the truth is ignored

So who do we trust

When the truth needs to be spoken

When a friend tells a friend

And a faithful promise is broken

So many theories floating

That nobody wants to claim

And it seems that every body else

Is looking for somebody else to blame

A vicious circle begins

When the truth reveals a lie

And the hope of trust in a friend

Falls like a tear from your eye

So who do you turn to

When your faith and trust is gone

When the friend you thought was loyal

Becomes the person who did you wrong

How frightening it can be

To lose faith in another human being

When you invest so much of your trust

Only to find out that its just an illusion
You have been seeing
Do you give in to your defeat

And never trust again
Or do you lift your head and heart
And find the trust in another friend...?

© 2006 Sevgi Boga. All Rights Reserved

07 มิถุนายน

Highest Goodbye

She lies in a pool of helplessness
Too dazed to even lift her head
Her body so cold,
She’s trembling
All alone
So confused
She feels so scared
Her eyes are without a fraction of light
Gazing around with such deep despair
No energy to whisper little lone scream
She prays;
Hoping that someone will find her there
Silence begins to pierce her ears
Overwhelming her fearful mind
Her heart beating faster with each breath
Darkness beckons
As her tears flood her eyes
Consumed by this sensation before
She waits anxiously for it to pass
Though she knows in her heart
This isn’t like the other times
For this time she feels a heavier darkness cast
Paralysed in all her limbs
Her eye lids fall
As she begins to weep
So helpless
So numb
So full of despair
Slowly she gives into a deeper sleep
The minutes tick away
And the hours go by
Until finally a figure appears
Though it’s too late
To rescue her soul
For now she has flown
Far away to an unknown world
Her friends were all shocked
To hear that she was taken away
Their heads in their hands in disbelief
Crying on her funeral day
How unreal it feels to lose someone
How cold it feels to not have their burning flame
For now her smile will linger as a memory
And for all that knew her
Their lives will never be the same again.

(*inspired by a precious life lost to drugs R.I.P*)

25 พฤษภาคม

Only In My Memory (My Childhood innocence)

I see you in my reflection
And in all the things I want to feel
I seek in you what I’m missing
Because its your presence that makes me feel real

I see you in my shadows
Crawling around in amongst the light
You see me spread out in a million pieces
Searching for clues to make every piece fit right

I sense you in my breathing
Feeling you move through my narrowest veins
I feel you in the sunshine
And in the warmth of better days

Your scent lingers through the air
Crossing paths with my dreamful mind
You take me to places that I had forgotten
To a time where freedom danced in my once innocent eyes

And though the framed moments of this life time
Will echo through the years
I see your reflection struggling to shine
as you dwell and fall in my tears

And like a drop of water
I feel myself flowing towards a deeper sea
And though I carry you within my breath
Your presence now lingers only as a memory

© 2006 Sevgi Boga. All Rights Reserved

09 พฤษภาคม

The Devil's Game

How is it that you don't see
What I see when I look at you
Why is it that your full of despair
Instead of letting your light shine through
I see you swaying in hopelessness
In pain and in self doubt
But my beautiful girl
Don't you EVER give up
Don't let your fire burn out
Because its the devils game
That makes you feel this way
Wearing and tearing you down
He’ll take your smile and turn it inside out
And he’ll laugh while your wearing a frown
You see yourself in the mirror you say
Your reflection you can’t seem to bare
But it’s the darkness that seduces your mind
To think that there is no light there
You say you feel like ending it all
Manifesting within you is pain
But my beautiful girl
Your too precious for that
Don’t you give in to the shadow’s game
Your dreams are not an illusion
Your hopes should never be despair
Because It’s never too late to spread your wings
And soar again, like a bird in the air
Though I know this road that we travel along
Brings all sorts of things our way
And sometimes its seems that the struggle never ends
And we give up to see a brighter day
But you have to believe in the higher force
And trust that your prayers are heard
Remember that all the struggles we face
Is all relative to our end reward
So hold your head high
And sing your song loud
For there is no one else like you
You’re a magical force
And you make me so proud
With everything you’ve grown into..!

10:59 | เพิ่มข้อคิดเห็น | ลิงก์ถาวร | จัดทำบล็อก | My Poems

01 พฤษภาคม

A Song of Freedom

Your eyes like velvet darkness
You gazed into my soul
Singing a song of freedom
Opening a world a longed to know
You moved through me like lightening
Staining my body with your soft hands
You found me in missing pieces
Stripping me slowly with your mystifying glance
Breathless;
So dazed by your touch
I felt my heart come undone
In your hands you held my soul
Mesmerized;
I knew you had won
Though, blinded by your light
I saw what I couldn’t keep
I saw your world of freedom
Planted were seeds we couldn’t reap
I felt you turn away
Felt coldness come over me
Though I knew you couldn’t stay
Without your light I couldn’t see
In shadows fell my lonely heart
Drowning slowly within its aching beat
So many nights I had lain awake
Praying that I’d see you again in my sleep
Though the days passed
and months went by
And slowly my wounds began to mend
And suddenly for the first time
I felt the pain had come to an end
I reached for you
One night in my sleep
For now it was clear to see
The world had moved in its mysterious way
As you were meant to cross paths with me
You had caused me pain
And bruised my heart
But I knew the reasons why
You had come to sing a song of freedom
But it was only meant for a little while
You opened up a world in me
That I stand strong to face alone
And though a scar will always remain
I know we both have grown
I think of you from time to time
Your laughter..
Your smile..
I see
I wish for you all the happiness in the world
For the freedom you sang to me…

27th December 2005

*E* (reposted)

29 เมษายน

Troubled Heart

She sways in a mist

Of crowing shadows
Weighed down to her feet
By her heavy heart
She looks within herself
To find the answers
Though her troubled mind
So confused
She doesn’t know
Where
Or how to start
She looks to the horizons
In hope of some new light
For her burdened soul
Becomes too much to bare
Though a glimmer of sun
Maybe not be too much to ask
Her face to the sky
She prays;
For her eyes to see some there
Around her;
All she sees are walls
Frowning faces
Restricting rules
And it seems that
No matter where she turns
Like a shadow, its there
She has something to lose
My dear friend
I understand your troubled thoughts
I know you’re confused
That your mind is distraught
I see you head and heart
Struggling for your time
I see that you’re worn
And that you want peace of mind
So my hand to you I offer
In your time of despair
I know it may not be much
But I want you to know I’m there
For in your bright eyes
I see an unstoppable force
I see courage and strength
A woman with no remorse
So stand strong
And hold your head up high
Take a leap of faith
Cos I know that your angels
Will be there to help you fly

Inspired by a friends troubled heart
Dedicated to *N*

© 2006 Sevgi Boga. All Rights Reserved

28 เมษายน

I Don't

I don’t miss you anymore
I don’t wake up with you on my mind
I don’t go to sleep at night
Still holding your hand in mine
I don’t miss your skin,
Your sweet scent
Or even your beautiful smile
I don’t miss your soft touch
Or your face
I don’t even miss your dark eyes
I don’t wish you were here
Or that I was laying in your arms
I don’t even think of you
Or miss your seducing charm
I know what is real now
I know that your love was just a lie
I know that when you left me that day
You thought that without you I would die
But I’m still here
Still standing,
Stronger than ever before
Without you I’m doing just fine
Cos’ today;
I just don’t miss you anymore…

© 2006 Sevgi Boga. All Rights Reserved

26 เมษายน

Reflection..

Crystal ripples

Dance on a velvet blue sea

My mind

So clear

So calm

I float lightly

In the cool breeze

Through me I feel the sun

Soothing me with its warming rays

A deep breath in I take

I close my eyes

Whispering

'Thank you God for this day'...

*Reflecting i wrote this sitting on the balcony of my families beach house looking out to the amazing sea view infront of me...*
24/04/06

18 เมษายน

Words Unspoken

I feel you moving through me
Every time I begin to write
Stained by your smile
Paralysed in your light
I can still taste your lips
Feel your heat on my skin
You pulse through my veins
With every breath I take in
Slowly, I close my eyes;
Again, you’re standing here
So softly you touch me
Your sweet scent fills the air
I can feel my heart pounding
Beating, fast like a drum
You soothe me with your kiss
My body comes undone
Uncontrollable;
Hands
Our Lips
Our bodies’ moan
Finding each other in a place
No-one else will ever know
Unspoken desires
Forbidden,
Though my words are true
I crave…
I ache…
I long for so much for you...